Our son Van William Peterson was born December 7th, 2011 at 11:15 pm. He was 7lbs 5 oz and is incredibly beautiful!Labor isn't very easy. I figured it wouldn't be but it is a completely different story when the process starts and you think to yourself, "Self, let's do this tomorrow, when I expect it, and maybe then I will be ready." But of course when he wants to come he will, and I just had to tell myself that eventually it would end.
I was doing pretty well during the first hours. I didn't want to go to the hospital in case it was a false alarm and so I waited.
When we went into the hospital the nurses all looked at me like I was an idiot because it is my first baby. They took their sweet, precious time setting me up and the nurse was surprised to see that my contractions, indeed were consistent and I was dilated to a 3.
They put me in a room right across from the nurses station, which posed a problem when I did start getting noisier and they started to come in and tell e to get an epidural.
I wimped out and got the epidural and some how within 20 minutes of having it I was dilated to a 9...I feel as though I was misled-since only an hour before I was told I was a 5...I will have other children so I will try natural again. At least I told myself I was going to wing it, I never did make a decision one way or there other. But I will admit I feel a little disappointed in myself. At the same time, the epidural was absolutely lovely and I enjoyed having my son.
He is gorgeous!!
Rod feels a little ripped off considering Van looks exactly like me. He does have Rod's hands and feet though!
I am going to love being a mom. I never knew I was capable of loving someone so much. He is now the most precious piece of my life. I hope and pray that I will be able to always convey that to him-and more importantly that he will understand. When he doesn't, I hope that I can teach him that his Heavenly Father loves him even more, so he never feels alone or unloved.
It strengthens my testimony of a Father in Heaven. I know that He lives and loves me. I also know that He can forgive all things and that He hears all of my prayers. I have a greater knowledge because I know that I want to be able forgive my son of his mistakes and teach him a better way and I always want to hear all he has to say. I never want to miss a moment and since I know that my Heavenly Father is eternal and loving He never does miss a moment of our lives.
